You don’t have to find out that you are dying to start living…

Recently, I rewatched a movie that was released in 2020 called Clouds starring Fin Argus as Zach Sobiech, who has a big dream to inspire many people through his art despite the health problem that he is having.

“We learned not for school but for life”

A quote stated by the wall of his high school where was the first thing that touched me a lot to think deeply about the meaning of the plot and essence of the whole story. Because all this time, we’ve been taught to learn something so that we can have a good grade. But in a deeper meaning of understanding, I feel like as school is a big part of our life, especially for those who got the privilege to have it, that era is the moment where you will be able to experience many things that you never have before, but you learn it so by the time it comes again in the future, you won’t be too fucked up.

Zach has been struggling with osteosarcoma and has been receiving regular treatments for it. I guess it is true that not just him who suffered but others with similar conditions try to find the exact meaning of life. Because knowing the fact that you are not healthy somehow will create so many disruptive thoughts in your mind.

“Sometimes I wonder why it is happening to me.” — Zach

A constant hurt you’ll feel when facing a tragedy, any kind of tragedy.

Thinking about what you have done before causing the situation that you are facing at the moment. it feels like the world world turns against you, and nobody will ever support or even be there for you.

“In the middle of difficulties, last opportunities”

In the middle of all those fucked up moments, there will be something or someone who comes after you and gives you a glimpse of hope that you can actually get out of your suffering.

When you think that you will never attach to anybody, not because you would not let them but because of the time, the situation, and the whole world are in a very complicated situation.

But, in any way, it comes.

It feels so good. Feels like a vivid dream, a dream that is not very clear but still beautiful while also making you feel so nervous about “what if”.

Going back to the beginning of the movie, there is a narrative saying, “What some people take for granted, others are fighting for it.”

I hope that you will choose to be a fighter. Like me and the other people who also fight for what they believe made fulfillment in their life.

When you know that your time won’t be long enough and you only have a few chances to have fun, you have a tendency to do something crazy, and that is completely fine and amazing!

“You don’t have to find out that you are dying to start living”

I hope you will be the kid who ended up fighting and others will remember you like that.

All the best 💙