Make it water | How I deal with my OCD
It has been three years since I publicly opened up my condition about having OCD. Some people might not even notice because I never take my OCD as something that I always tell people every second I take action. I can talk about it when it is needed, and when people ask, that is it.
The update? I am still living it, ever since I said that I would live with it a few years ago. As time went by, with the moment of maturing through my ages, I learned a lot of things consciously about how I should deal with the fact about the condition of my brain. Especially, when I received the greatest momentum in my life back in 2021 about having a neuron injury, which took a lot of energy and effort to make it out alive until this time. So many tests and lab passes to understand what I am currently going through. Then, one realization came to my life: “Your mentality about what you have been suffering is something you can develop, and all it takes is just the mindset of keep surprising yourself with your courage.”
So how do I deal with my “not so normal” condition in my case, which I gather from many sources, including TikTok, and how do I make it my way?
- End your stigma about taking tests and medicines
We never know unless we try, right?
That goes the same with what kind of disease you have; taking tests and medicines might help you wake up, help you recover, or help you live with it, and that is totally okay. Also, remember to leave it to the professionals! DO NOT SELF DIAGNOSE!
I might have to take medicine for my whole life, but I don’t really feel burdened about it because that is what helps me keep living my life.
2. Know your personality and your phases in life
Having something that is going on in your mind might be very rough if you do not know who you really are and what kind of phase you currently have. There are so many ways to do it, by learning from theories, books, movies, or writing what you feel somewhere.
That is the first stage of “your life is your responsibility, you are the one who is responsible for who you are becoming.” It is not you in the past, your ex, or whoever it is. Stop blaming others, stop blaming yourself, and stop making it as an excuse to put yourself in that suffering zone. Most importantly, stop victimizing yourself. Because there is nothing you should blame for, but indeed, there is something you should fix with your own power. You become what you believe.
3. Don’t lock yourself up
In my case, especially back when the early stage of having OCD came into my life, it is really obvious. The more you try to hide it, the more suffering you will feel about it. Ever since I opened up to many people, I feel like I have released all of the burden that I had all this time, not to the people in my surroundings, but just to nature itself.
Get yourself a support system that might come from your significant others, and also get a mentor who might be someone you can look up to for any advice.
If you need to talk with me, you can also reach out! I suggest you watch my first video of coming out as someone who has OCD first, then read some of my writings before this one to know what kind of expertise I have been developing since a few years back. Love you!
Well, happy World Mental Health Day!
I hope the stigma will end.
I hope you’ll find your peace to live your life.
And don’t forget to surprise yourself and make every step you take to be the most relevant decision in your life.
